Life & Ramblings, Travel

a week in LA 🐻


At the end of May I drove down to LA with my parents to visit UCLA, my future school. I took some photos, I want to talk about them, we all know how blogs work. We did a tour led by one of those backwards walking student guides, met up with some of my dad’s friends from college who live in the area, and I dealt with some intense impostor syndrome.

I’m always into a blue and orange combination. And I really liked the “adventure starts here” lettering!

UCLA has a gorgeous campus. It is green and sunny and feels like California in all the best ways. It makes me want to post on my studyblr more and be a Cool College Gal laying on the grassy lawn reading smart books. It also kind of makes me want to have an anxiety attack on the bathroom floor. During our tour I felt intensely insecure about my place there and scared of myself, scared of failure, scared of my ability to self-sabotage so that I fail, and eventually I realized that I live with fear at the top of my mind and that’s something that I want to get rid of. It feels maddeningly simple now but when I thought about it then I was like “my god, is this what Kylie Jenner talked about when she said realizing things?”. I don’t think I’d ever fully grasped how much I live with fear and how much I think in a fearful way – and from that, how much I want that to stop now. So, that’s where I’m at now in regards to this Big Life Move Thing, and I’m trying my darnedest to keep hope and belief strung throughout my brain despite my worst instincts.

It was almost the end of the quarter when we went, so we saw lots of people doing graduation photo shoots and flinging confetti in the air (only to later land on the ground and remain for who knows how long).

This building is Royce Hall and is on the cover of all the brochures and websites and shit that gets trotted out to potential students. This building is also one I had a stress dream about, involving me showing up to class here and being turned away. It’s impossible that my dream will actually occur, in part because I was accepted god damn it, but also because I think this building is only really used for fancy purposes, not classes.

Our backwards walking tour guide! I started the tour off feeling really fucking awful, as previously mentioned, but over the course of our two hours together I did manage to feel less inadequate and lol/gasp appropriately at his fun facts. Apparently this campus was used as Harvard in Legally Blonde.

After our tour we met my dad’s college friends to have dinner and crash at their house.

Next time I’ll have some more photos of this week, involving UC San Diego, Santa Monica Beach, and the few days I spent with my friend who went to UCLA (now graduated!) – thanks as always 4 reading, and pls join us next time to see if the latest of my many quarter life crises has been resolved.

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